I have some friends that are trying to make my life better but they can't. I love them for their effort though. I will never be happy but they don't know that. They just want me to be happy. I hope that something good will happen for them because nothing good will happen for me. I hope them the best life ever

are u ok? do u need help?

Hey, listen. I know life can suck. Seriously. I've been through a lot, especially a few years back. I never thought I get out of the dark state I was in. It took a while, and it was hard, I'll tell you. It took me two years to finally love and accept myself and to try and be happier. I still have bad days, yes. I want to tell you that no matter what it is that you're going through that it is a temporary situation. I promise. Everyone has ups and downs in life..and yes, the downs are way way down and seem to last forever and torture your mind but you will get through whatever it is you're going through. You're strong and capable and as I can see you have your friends who care deeply about you. I know you're saying they can't help...I thought so too but my best friend has helped me tremendously. If I'm feeling down I call her and vent and we cry together. If you need anything just ask..

d. she conquered the black sea coast and parts of poland.