Okay okay... brainy please do NOT delete this question... I really need some answers before I actually explode (not physically but mentally) Okay here's my question
So in my classroom and I have a friend let's name her ''ShiShi'' so we've been friends for 7 years lately we would get into drama and I HATE IT. Whenever we have a disagreement on something she would make me look like the ''villain'' she would get disgusted on how I ate and she would call me out for that. She said ''Don't eat like that that's gross'' okay so I'm Asian and thats how me and my FAMILY eats. I tried not facing her so then she wouldn't get bothered on I ate. STILL she kept looking at me she did not get the clue that I tried to let her NOT see how I ate. Okay heres a note about me: Whenever I get into a fight I stay silent, words rush in my head way to fast, so I tend to say silent. If she was bothered wouldn't she put a bit of effort not to see me? NO she did not gave a effort to not seeing me. There's this incident where I was sucking a popsicle, she told me not to suck it because it gives her a ''image'' a image that is VERY DIRTY. Okay, to me sucking a popsicle gives me the best taste of the popsicle. I said that she shouldn't look at me if she was bothered. But, then again she continued to look at me and then she gave me a look a look when you look at a garbage-can. Here's a side note whenever shi-shi and me get into a argument she always cry out to her siblings shi-shi is younger than me and her siblings are like 16 and 19 (she has 2 older sibling) I have a HUGE disliking of them cause whenever we talk I can legit hear them disliking me. So they would target me; she also has a mom thats a teacher in my school so I would get in trouble and I had to get a long lecture on why fighting is bad blah blah blah. I really hate it like REALLY hate it. I was once looking at a beautiful couple and their baby while eating and then here we go again she was disgusted. At THAT TIME I WAS SO ANGRY. I had built a strong disliking of her attitude. Then, I told her, ''It's a good thing your my friend by now I would have stab you in the eye.'' Then she got all sassy of how I am lucky to be her friend and that stabbing her eye is not possible because she was stronger. Then she bragged on how her father would take her to karate class and that she would get stronger than me. Then she told her siblings and then we had a huge drama. I really feel lonely Y'know when everyone is against you and you feel like your the problem.. What should I do? Should I act like this? Or should I step up for myself? The friends I have usually leave me when me and shi-shi fight so please give me advice I want to start new.