hello i am a bit scared to ask this question but im too scared to ask anyone irl. i tend to get very nauseous after i eat or even while eating. i always feel mentally horrible after eating and tend to purge(forcibly vomit). other days i dont eat at all and i feel this type of being proud of myself when i starve all day. i want to be as skinny as possible. can anyone tell me why do i think like this. is there a name for it? or am i being dramatic. pls help