lately i’ve secretly been not taking my depression pills bc when i do if i’m sad i can’t cry so i just sit there emotionless feeling numb and i hate it. but when i don’t i’m tired and not motivated to do anything but when i’m sad i can finally cry and let it out and it feels so good. i’m too scared to tell anyone and to anxious to get a therapist and i honestly dont know what to do. i just need some help. please give me advice :)