I just can't stop thinking about someone as much as i try to i can't! some people i know were right i just stop wanting this person and it hurts me that i can't stop and ill never be good enough... Out of focus, out of focus
I don't call nobody notice, nobody know this
I'm invisible even to myself

On my mattress, on my mattress
My only friends are dust and ashes, blunts and matches
It's a ritual but it don't help

I push everyone away
Before they can runaway
I'm not gonna let you see
Everything underneath
I put up a thousand walls
So I don't get hurt no more
All you get is what you see
This ain't no apology

I don't think I'll ever be good enough
I don't think I'm ever gonna find someone
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home

I don't think I'll ever be good enough
Voices in my head wish I could turn 'em off
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home

With the lights off, with the lights off
I don't have to see the things I'm terrified of
I'm invisible keep it to myself
Keep it to myself
Keep it to myself, baby

TVs on but I ain't watching
I just tryna to fill the silence while I lie here
It's a ritual but it don't help
Help
Help
Help

I put up a thousand walls
So I don't get hurt no more
All you get is what you see
This ain't no apology

I don't think I'll ever be good enough
I don't think I'm ever gonna find someone
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home

I don't think I'll ever be good enough
Voices in my head wish I could turn 'em off
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home