I love my boyfriend so much I think I’m going to burst I don’t have anyone in my life I can tell (besides him but I don’t want to get all weird on him) because most of my friends are single and, honestly, kind of bitter. I tell my dad this stuff sometimes but he just kinda does the non-committal “uh huh.” So I wanted to share with everyone on reddit something happy that has me feeling like mushy, sparkly, glowing jelly. This may come out as an incoherent mess because I’m on mobile and just going wild with typing this all out but I had to put it somewhere.
I have only been dating my boyfriend for a few months but I already know that he is the one. From date #2 I had no doubts that I want to spend the rest of my life with this person.
He is amazing. He’s kind, he’s generous, he’s funny, he’s loving, he’s smart, he’s beautiful. He’s introduced me to a kind of love I didn’t know was possible until I met him and there are days where I look at the mountain of things he’s done for me and can barely breathe at the crazy need I feel to do something in return. When I tell him I want to do something for him, he just smiles and says “just love me.” There are times where I am so sassy to him and sometimes so stressed out that I can’t function like a normal friend let alone girlfriend and he just wraps his arms around me and holds me for a couple minutes.
I love him with my whole soul and I didn’t know a person could do that but somehow I still want to love him even more. Everyone says I deserve it and that I deserve him because of how my last relationship was— but truthfully I’m certain that I don’t because he is such an incredible person.
I’m worried because I grew up in a split home and never had a really good/non-toxic relationship that I don’t know what love is but I want to believe this is it. That two people can cross paths in this world and be made for each other with a little hard work and perseverance— I’m not naive enough to believe that relationships don’t take work or don’t struggle from time to time. I want to believe that it’s okay to be so in love with someone that I want to burst like some kind of magical cosmic explosion. And at the end of the day, I want to believe that he feels the same way too but I don’t know how to ask or if I even should.