What’s the main idea of refugee chapter 9

- "the die is cast; i have consented to return if we are not destroyed. thus are my hopes blasted by cowardice and indecision; i come back ignorant and disappointed. it requires more philosophy than i possess to bear this injustice with patience. i have lost my hopes of utility and glory; i have lost my friend."

i would pick a. i think this is more of a personal question though.

? ? what can you explain this to me i am so confused