What does Crane mean when he says “At last, However, had made firm rebellion against this yellow light thrown upon the color of his ambition” in the Red Badge of Courage

Does anyone know the answers to these two? i don’t want to have to guess, you!

Read these sentences from thr excerpt. what the most dreaded, that i most desired. what he most loved, i most hated. that which to him was a great evil, to be carefully shunned, was to me a great good, to be diligently sought; and the argument which he so warmly urged, against my learning to read, only served to inspire me with a desire and determination to learn. which statement best explains why the author uses parallel structure to advance his purpose?

What is the correct def of moif? an idea or object that recurs in a text